终于结束summer course,并且得了及格的成绩,我满足了!

然后就是打工打工,随叫随到的工作,不过有苦有乐咯.

然后突然发现朋友们的msn都开始在搞诗, 我就是喜欢对着做,来搜集点词

其实我觉得我更喜欢词一些,格式更为随意,长短结合,不局限于几句话,更能表达出作者的感觉.

其中我最喜欢的是辛弃疾和李清照.因为感觉两人的词就象烈酒,一杯下去,烧到底,而不是低度的慢慢上头.

一个词,痛快!

 

词·声声慢                       宋·李清照  

寻寻觅觅，冷冷清清，凄凄惨惨戚戚。

乍暖还寒时候，最难将息。
三杯两盏淡酒，怎敌他晚来风急!

雁过也，正伤心，却是旧时相识。
满地黄花堆积，憔悴损，如今有谁堪摘?

守着窗儿，独自怎生得黑!

梧桐更兼细雨，到黄昏，点点滴滴。

这次第，怎一个愁字了得!

 

破阵子             宋·辛弃疾     
醉里挑灯看剑，梦回吹角连营。

八百里分麾下灸，五十弦翻塞外声。

沙场点秋兵。

马作的卢飞快，弓如霹雳弦惊。

了却君王天下事，嬴得生前身后名。

可怜白发生！

 

 

 

2006年,我无怨无悔,我快乐,我满足!2007年 我要更加幸福

祝我的亲朋好友在2007年里都健康快乐!

since i arrived AUS, i have already gone to the church twice only. but each time, i feel better. peole there are friendly, just feel free to talk to each other. and the church also support different services, like the english program, music performance, dinner, and so on, depends on different organizer. so everyone can enjoy the atmosphere there. people always think that it is a chance to meet new friends here. anyway, church here is multiple function community, not only for religion.

他们也会请那些在非洲工作的专家过来做演讲,然后发动大家给非洲募捐; 然后会组织BBQ聚会,邀请国际学生来参加,互相认识了解.教堂已经发展成为一种超出宗教的场所,上帝的概念深入人心,我觉得这个才是西方社会最基本的东西,就象中国的孔子文化,中华的子孙多少会带有一点中庸思想,而西方是另外的一种道德观念.比如富人的概念就是上帝安排他们暂时聚集财富在他们那里,然后有需要他们的地方,你应该依照上帝的指示,把钱拿出来,用在其他穷人的身上,所以这些慈善的观念他们应该感觉很平常.要不他们死后的灵魂应该不能安息的吧.做错了事,可以找牧师开导,跟上帝忏悔,疏解心理压力.甚至在我工作的motel,每个房间放一本圣经.这个圣经讲到的东西就太多了,虽然我没看过,但是今天讲圣经的内容居然是sex.先用一个幽默短片开头,说的是local people也会发音错误,ses发成sex,比如successful...,然后下面的人都笑晕了.然后就开始讲圣经,当然是以god said that 开头了,然后说到什么condon的,抱歉我的英文不好,只能识别个别单词.然后下面很多小孩那里听.这个教育是相当深刻的了吧? 然后会把上帝的福音那些编曲,唱出来,大家在下面一起站着跟着唱,合着节拍,小孩就当是游戏那里跳,青年人甚至当成是结交女性朋友的party.反正上帝的宣传方式很广很跟着时代发展,也许就是与时俱进了吧

我不知道怎么说了,但是我感觉很好,可以让你感觉上帝就在身边,你周围都是那么多可爱的人.相比中国的佛教和中东的那些天天跪地阿门的也要一点点.不过宗教这个玩意,这种思想上的东西太可怕了.中东的那些有斋日的,对我这种天天吃肉的还真不能接受,还整天那里跪,女人没有什么自由,面得蒙着,不能单独上街,不能开车,完全不能想象. 中国的现在还说是迷信呢 我都迷惑了 难道上帝也是迷信?应该是一种信念的支撑

I was encouraged to carrying on my english space by visiting my friend--louis's space. Maybe I dont have to describe my feeling and tell my story all in english, but some of them can be in english.

As I know, I can improve my english in three ways:

1. read more newspapers

2. stay with native speakers

3.practice using english in any situations

anyway, I start read some news and listen to some vedioes to get start.

recently, I found a website which is found by foreigners in beijing. it is so fun and they edit their own vedioes to record overseas people's life in China. so from their views, we can understand somemore about our homecountry. also, I can read the news from their website, to understand how they think about what is happending in China.

contrast by differernt way of thinking, we can have fun and study english.

here are the websites: http://www.danwei.org/ or http://www.danwei.tv/

by the way, I am not happy these days, I always worry about sth., not only the exams, but also my future.

I found it is time to redound to my parents. I can do sth. to make them happy and have colourful life when they are retired.after all, they have already work so long time to take care of me the all, it is time for them to relax and enjoy the wonderful life. I also can take my resposibility for this family. family, it is all my life.

又考完一门,我可没时间回味,因为还有2门在等着呢,但是有必要检讨一下,为接下来的岁月做点铺垫

在考完回家的路上,我突然觉得我就是一个社会的大蛀虫

从本科的会计考试到现在的硕士,我的会计报表居然还没做对过一次,特别是在考试的时候没做对过,我指帐目没平过

虽然有步骤分,都及格了,但是象会计这些,出到社会上去乱做帐的话,不会影响到社会经济的正常秩序呀

这次考到后面,由于理不清每个帐户的属性,在宏观上不能把握他们之间的联系,我都不知道自己在写什么了 有的科目平了,有的根本就不知道什么回事 但是回到家才扫一眼,就恍然大悟 这个到底是怎么搞的

看来我这种社会蛀虫也得看书搞点别的了,因为我的理念一直是学习的这些东西出到社会没用,特别是这边工作的话,不会MYOB和不会会计没什么两样.但是这些基础的东西还是能让我将来在工作上能更快的适应.至于思想上,也被人批评了 到处乱想

还有我缺乏宏观看问题的能力 不能把会计放大 专注在细节是没什么意思的 这个逻辑思考的东西就是得能在各个科目之间联系起来

好了 5分钟乱七八糟检查 继续复习

 

有人确实跟我谈了些爱情什么之类的,而且是一位在爱情方面很有收获的组织高层人物

但是我就是喜欢和组织唱反调,继续自己乱想,接上面的话题

至于婚姻,爱情哦 我先从亲情谈起吧 世界上你可以不相信任何人,但是一定要相信父母;世界上任何的地方都没有家这个地方温暖.父母永远是无私的对待和照顾自己的孩子.哪怕他们有时候唠叨,有时候杞人忧天,甚至你觉得和你的意愿是完全相反的,你觉得你被禁锢了,但是无可否认,他们的出发点是好的,他们是爱你的.一切都是在爱的基础上.这些组成了家.

同样,婚姻的目的是组成一个家.这个家的基石也是爱.虽然这里首先是由爱情为基础,但是最后升华为亲情的一种结合.在这个家里,两口子互相支持,我觉得有点象父母对子女的那种无私的支持和爱,只要你好,我什么都可以为你做.怎么说呢 我自己也不知道 也许这个有点象空想社会主义,太理想化了.现实也许是因为别的因素才结合在一起.权钱交易?或者肉体交易? 哈哈这个是看小说看多了

给一个问题大家思考一下 互相支持的话,和个性有关吗?要互补的好呢还是相近的好呢

 

首先声明,我在考试前脑子特别活跃,虽然我大学逻辑也没及格,但是就是喜欢胡思乱想

至于博弈,我也不是很清楚,照我理解,就是大家都想找平衡点,达到利益或者别的东西的最大化

应该爱情和婚姻也在此列.要不人们怎么要说门当户对,郎才女貌,......

鉴于我不是很懂爱情,别人也不跟我讨论这个东西,然后最近结婚和想结婚的的同学比较多,就谈下婚姻好了

婚姻,一种投资一种赌博或者纯属爱情升华到亲情的产物也都罢,有否有人想到自己的另外一半是否"值得"和自己进入婚姻?

一个人可以分为美人,丑人,精神富人和物质富人的话,对照的另外一半也是如此.先这样吧 你有否根据自身情况去找相应的男女朋友?或者进入特定的圈子? 晕,感觉说不下去了算了 这个话题太深 吃饭睡觉去,以后再做研究

今天学习到一半,太累了,偷懒睡觉.起来做饭吃的时候看到一群蚂蚁,于是,在吃饭的时候,我想:

蚂蚁也会偷懒睡觉吗?在蚂蚁短暂的蚁生历程中,蚂蚁难道就不会觉得累吗 如果不能象我一样偷懒睡觉,可以打盹吗?

马上搜索百度,得到的答案是:蚂蚁永远不睡觉.证据: http://www.fmpet.com/central/Article_Show.asp?ArticleID=1571

印象中以前看过一篇以蚂蚁为第一人称的童话小说,好象是郑渊洁写的,描述一只生命周期只有几周的工蚁吧还是别的蚂蚁种类,在其短暂的蚁生中经历的各种事件,包括觅食,保卫家园,进攻,联盟,...,直至死亡的故事.什么都有了,完全象是一个人一样,惟独没有描写休息之类的,似乎唯一的一次休息是因为寒冷的来临,他们的血液使他们不能行动,处于一种冬眠状态,并不是主观意识的偷懒. 一旦温度回升,他们马上投入紧张的生产劳动中.

然后好象有最后预言,蚂蚁是地球真正的统治者.

完全乱了,我的思维的片段凑成的一个小小的故事.

为什么人需要休息呢?勤劳的蚂蚁为什么不能统治地球?因为人类大只一些吗?还是因为我们的脑袋大(也不够鲸鱼,大象大呀)?

蚂蚁的社会里,蚂蚁为什么能自觉的工作,谁给他灌输了这种劳动的思想?他们搬运几十倍于自己体重的食物,还是为别人搬的,却从来不休息,吃得也很少.这是真正的共产主义?一切都是因为他们的思想简单吗

转到人类思想方面,人的思想是非常强大的,这个毋庸质疑.一个人的可以在几个小时内把一场战争的各个细节在脑子里播放一遍,然后结束这场战争,但是真正去做的时候可能得花费几年时间.思维的速度远远的大于我们的实际操作速度.也许正是由于我们的行动跟不上我们的思维,让我们产生了懈怠.要知道望梅止渴可以支撑人活着走出沙漠,但是一旦知道这个只是假象,人们100%立马倒下.脑子的强大使我们人类控制了地球,但是也让我们产生了懈怠,......

趁着衣服还没洗好来发下牢骚 很久没来了

态度决定一切,老狐狸米卢给中国队的一句话,我觉得很能说明问题

因为人的思想是非常神奇和伟大的,甚至能决定你的生死,下面举几个例子演绎归纳一下:

1. 一艘货轮.冰柜里.一船员发现自己被反锁在里面.无助.于是绝望.想着自己完了,好冷.人们在船到岸的时候发现他被冻死在冰柜里(请注意,是冻死的).但是,冰柜并没有启动.温度是正常.他属于思想上的自杀.(另一个经典的case是古代的曹操,他的"望梅止渴"使他的士兵从死到生)

2.你认为运动员在挑战一个世界记录的时候,都会说我不行的吗?没有一个世界记录保持者这样想.他们肯定是在想我一定可以.认为自己不行的人根本不可能成功,这种甚至连尝试的勇气都失去的人,不是男人!

3.如果有长跑经历的人都知道,什么叫极限,每个人都得用顽强的意志力去完成这个似乎不可能的任务. 即使最好的长跑选手自己也有自己的极限.挺过这段时期,你会发现海阔天空.

所以: 态度决定你的一切.所以要干吗...我还没想好 哈哈 因为衣服洗好了

 

暂时荒废状态,估计得停业整顿一段时间 等过了这段紧张的考试时期 再恢复营业 开春见

Treat pepple how you would like to be treated

Take the risk to be the flower in the desert.

我实在忍不住了,不用国语不能描述我目前的心境和处境.

4天里,考了3门课,法律,信息系统和金融,一直处于痛与恨的边缘.也在pass的边缘.

痛,怎么就写不出来呀,连抄书本都不够时间抄,甚至连金融的题目都看不懂,真的是引用JOHN先生最喜欢说的那句"it is very tricky".还有信息系统,有的问答题楞是想吹两句在short answer上面,就是绞尽脑汁,都挤不出一个字.

痛完就开始恨了.为什么以前没认真看书呀?为什么世界杯要这个时候开始呀?为什么花钱找罪受呀?不是喜欢挑战吗?

今天是最晕的一天,因为连续作战的原因，心情一直高度紧张,脑子已经完全麻木,太阳穴发疼,几乎走火入魔.然后把大量的脑力投入了另外一个战场:是否要开病假条延缓考试呢?是否在考试的时候真的要装晕过去呢?或者是呕吐?或者装疯?或者......总之只要能让老师或者医生认定你确实不适合考试,完全不在状态就好.结果什么都没发生,看到卷子的那一刻,已经完全不知道发生了什么,只反应一个词,靠.又不懂

如果只是我这样觉得的话,我可以完全定论:我不适合学习.当大家都这样想的时候,还有其他的词可以用吗?

ps:其实考试的场景是很壮观的,上千人一起考试,可是没心情欣赏了,现在回味一下

回到家,两眼一抹黑,睡觉,这两天可都是靠红牛和能量饮料支撑的呢.不是都说国外的学习很轻松的吗?

偏偏这个时候,世界杯正自个玩的精彩,昨天晚上来个6:0,没能忍住,还是看了2个进球.

无语了.总之就是突然特别想表达一下自己的想法.却不能用英语表达出来

憋的感觉,是很无奈的.无论你憋什么

出去发泄一下,好好看一场球.其实自己也不是什么真球迷.只是想找个方式放松和发泄

希望2天后的会计考试能有好运.考完后的一周能有好消息,找到新房子,申请到免修,或者有更好的工作.哎 人要求太多 ,人心能吞象 .done

 

 

 

final exam is coming soon. have a rest and prepare for it.

good luck guys

 

however, may I miss the world cup?

Though I am busy in preparing the test next week and the final exam next month, I decide to update the space today. Having been got cold and got up late, I just stay at home to review finance.

Nothing interesting around me, all the things are studying. The only thing I can mention is that I talked with a manager while I was working. We talked about politics first, how long do you think the communist can exist in china? Goodness, difficult to answer this question and then discuss the right of voting. He is quite interested in the politics in china. (I found that he is a solicitor later) then we talked about the resource problem and the environment. We talked almost 30minutes.hoho, improve my English a lot. At last, he would like to know something in my hometown and likes 绣球He is a really kind and lovely manager, he works every day till night, so I know him after I have been cleaning the office for 6 weeks. He dose not look down upon the cleaners. Actually, in western country, labours are respected, no matter what kind of job you do. When I finished collecting rubbish bins or cleaning, they always smile to you and say thank you. Once I was laughed by a receptionist, due to my reply “thank you” as it is my job. Most people always smile to you, so I feel so good here. Not like that someone in china sometimes just depends on his mood.

Ok, the other good news is that the Chinese stock market is active.

Ok, that is it today. A za A za fighting. Come on, go ahead, add oil, go for it, then cheers.

After handing in two assignments, the only one idea is that how times flies. I have been falling into the vicious circle, sleep worse and then study worse and even work worse till today. I found I miss myself. Is the real life or the life I expected to have? Is the method of study right? Should I have the peaceful life or this kind of fussy but hopeful and ambitious life? I donot know, just keep on going. I told myself this is challenge and a man never likes peaceful life, more or less, he has to do some venture and take some risks, it is his responsibility. I remember the sentence our professor told us.

That is the reason why I update the space late. Maybe I can talk about my difficult course. Or I can write something funny here to have different mood. But maybe you know, depending on my poor English, I cannot do that far. Even some time, I want to give it up and write something in Chinese. Donot laugh at me, I will do it someday in the future.

Recently, I often heard that someone will be back to china after the final exam. On the way to work this morning, I thought about the advantages of staying at home when I saw the plane. Goodness, I feel sad again.

Ok, do more research on my subjects, because I have another exam and a research paper before the final exam. What is more, the final exam is soon.

Hope that you can enjoy yourselves in the labour’s day, my friends far away from me.

I introduce the other family members, Harry, Tina and Sophia. Harry and Tina are dogs, they are very friendly as well, and always shade their tails to get some food, they never full and like to sleep durinIthe day. Sophia is a fat cat, whom I can see her just in her dinner time. Derek and I have to walk with them in the park twice everyday. The first week I stayed in the house, I had another housemate from Korea called Soo, he is so kind to teach me how to get to Uni and where I can buy some cheap food. We still keep in touch after he went back to Korea. 

By the way, Derek is really good at table tennis. I played with him for, maybe more than 20 times, I couldnot beat him except one time.

I like to walk with them because I can talk with Derek to improve my English. In additional, he likes to disscus with me in many topics. He was shocked one time we talk about food in China that I have eaten dog before, and then make a joke, “I donot think Harry taste good, he is a nice boy.”

I alwanys remember the days we spent in raibow beach. One week before I moved out, they took me to the rainbow beach to have hoilday and told me no worries about the new house(that time I was still looking for a new house to move in), take it easy, you can stay here as long as you can.(that day I moved out they sent me to the new house, my friend told me that it is rarely) we rode bikes to the top of the hill to see sunrise and the view of the beach, and fed a 13 years old dolphin. We played tennies together. That was the wonderful time in my Australian life. Still now, I havenot visited other places because I have no car and enough time. In a word, we had wonderful time there.

These days, I am so busy in my tests and job, tired,tired……

To be continued………

Two days later after I was fired, I got another job in city with my friends’ help. Thank you for them.

This is a office cleaner position worked for Australian boss, so the wage is higher than the others who work for the chinese boss. My friend- Ronan, and I have to clean six floors in a 10 floor’s building within 3 hours, from 5:30pm to 8:30pm everyday, but we always finished it at about 9pm. Our work includes collecting rubbish bins, cleaning the desks,kichens, and glasses, then at last doing vacuument. One more toilet.

The first day, I felt a little bit tired. But one week later, now, I can say I get used to this job. Actually, I like this job though I want to find a parttime job relatived to my major all the time(too difficult). I was lazy before getting this job, especially got up quite late. But now, I find the time is limited for me, I have to try my best to do everything. This is the real overseas studying life with a part-time job. Do better!

Ps: I will have the first exam in UQ next week. Good luck to me.

Sorry to update my weekly notes late, because my friend and I drunk beer together and one of my housemate came back to Hongkong this morning.

when I wake up this morning I finished watching the Kingkong. What it is a tragedy! In fact, I hate to watch tragedy and  I told me never to be cried. It is ok that I just a little bit be shocked by this one. 

"the beast was killed by the bueaty"said Carl. different people can get different things he wants or  he needs from only one thing. in my opinion, Carl is a real businessman because he always takes risks and is a crazy adventurer. But partly he is not the villain holds sway in this movie. And Ann is a bueatiful girl with a nice heart. this kind of girl is as rare as the chicken with tooth. I know I met one. But it is pity that I gave up………………the point is that hard to meet the next one.

a week passed, nothing was done last week. everyday is the same and every year……

tired, just want to have a sleep.may be fight next week with a job."you can be ambtious when you are busy, weak when you are free"I heard from one friend.

 

First of all, I should say that this diary might be changed into weekly note to review what I did last week and some opinions during that period.

The life seems to be busy for me every week. The most important reason for this is that my timetable is not as good as I arranged. As someone said the plan always be variable. And the other reason is that I am not the housewife!!! I cannot manage my life well. I had to go shopping then cook by myself. Though my cooking is better now, you know, everyman may become tired when he always face one woman. What I mean is I just can cook a few dishes. That is pity.

I am a student aboard, so my work is studying. In the second week, I found that I could saw the professor’s back. At the same time, I had to spend much more time on reviewing and practicing. After that I felt tired. One day passed quickly.

Ok, in a word, time is so important. Just do it. It is a perfect advertisement sentence. Because the speed of thinking is equal to that of light, we cannot catch up with it, what can we do is just do it. And my teacher told me :” step by step, you can.”